Magic truffles and self realization
Can magic truffles or magic mushrooms help us realize the essence of who we are?
You might have heard of the quote:
“We are not human beings having a spiritual experience, but are spiritual beings having a human experience.”
— Pierre Teilhard de Chardin
It is a profound quote referring to a deeper understanding of what you and I are and what this thing called life is about.
Here in the West we predominantly learn according to that which we can witness with our five senses. In short: the material world. We listen to our parents, teachers, our peers, pastors, ‘experts’ and opinion gurus on TV and social media. From our personal experiences and the information from those eligibly reliable sources we assume a world view. Not only a world view, but also a view, an image of ourselves, a self-image of the person we think we are.
Many people unconsciously assume they are what they think they are. They think they are a person resembling their self-image. Your self-image, also referred to as ‘ego’ is usually constructed of a name, a personality, and a story. Within this personal story is a collection of memories, beliefs, impressions and sensations about who “you are,” where “you came from,” what “you’re good and bad at,” what “you’ve experienced,” and on, and on… it’s a conglomeration of cumulative but also contradicting thoughts.
The assumption you are your self-image is the starting point of a lifelong game of struggling to be good enough and to succeed: self-image serial improvement. The little voice in the mind comments on the self-image, which hurts and urges for further improvement of the self-image. Cleaning it up, getting more degrees, improving our bodies, more relationships, more money and bling bling to induce positive comments from their own judging mind and judging minds of others. Collecting more likes on Facebook, using picture filters so you look 10 years younger, hiding the bags under our eyes and our old-people’s wrinkles. The self-image is like an over-decorated Christmas tree, which is never finished and always needs more and more and more decoration.
How long we are going to play this game with each other, I don’t know. I guess it is a part of our animal nature, just like the male peacocks showing of their feathers to attract lady peacocks to mate.
Although it seems natural within the game of life, the question lingers on whether the man-made self-image is what you truly are… As a baby you already were you… without being occupied in the game of self-image creation and improvement… this suggests that you are prior to your self-image, the thoughts about who you are.
An image of self is not what you are. If anything, you are the one watching the self-image, experiencing the identification with the self-image, hearing the comments from the mind about it and feeling the feelings accordingly. I feel unworthy, sad, powerless if my self-image is crap, I feel accepted when I get enough positive feedback. This feedback I can hang in the self-image tree, making it beautiful and shiny, like the feathers on the peacock. A little brighter for a while, because after a couple of minutes, hours, days it needs more… more likes, compliments, conformations etcetera to keep the self-image bright and beautiful. And while you are jumping from one rock to the next, trying to be good enough via self-image improvement, life passes you by. The miracle of life, the wealth and beauty which is already here for you to enjoy, passes you by.
What you see in society is that some people are great at creating a positive self-image, decorating their tree with likes, accomplishments, acquiring shiny stuff, etc. Others are not so good at this game and just can’t seem to create a positive self-image, resulting in depression, stress, isolation, sadness and tension in the body.
Who am I?
So back to the basis. Back to the question Who am I really? Am I the self-image or at least does my self-image properly represent who I am? Or am I something totally different?
This is one of the most fundamental questions you could ask yourself. What if your self-image has nothing to do with who you really are? In this case why improving on it? Why bother with the endless striving for a positive self-image? Investigate for yourself what role your self-image plays in your life and the amount of work you move to sustain a positive self-image?
Buddha and all his followers have been asking themselves this same question for centuries: who am I? Jesus referred to this quest with the words ‘Seek the kingdom of heaven first and all else will be added on to you’.
Who are you if you don’t go to your mind, which comes up with a nice definition or explanation of who you are? The mind cannot show you what you are because you are not a definition, you are not an image or description. Instead you are the listener to the thoughts in the mind. Look at people who are thinking, they stare into the abyss waiting for a thought, an answer, to appear. Who is it that is staring? Who are you?
The same goes for feelings, emotions, bodily sensations… all of them are felt, watched, witnessed, experienced. Who is experiencing? Who are you?
Who listens, sees, feels, tastes, smells? Where are these impulses registered? What is that? Who are you?
Many people report finding a void, a peaceful silent void when they look inside for themselves… Investigate, don’t take anybody’s word for it, look for it yourself. It will liberate you from the whole self-image improvement game. The self-image doesn’t need to go, it is there, it is a creation of mind and is harmless as long as you realize who you are beyond the self-image. Realizing you are not a thought, a picture in the mind, a thing, but the silent peaceful void watching life taking place, then nothing needs to stop you anymore from being fully authentic and free. To enjoy life right here and now.
Can magic truffles help you realize your true essence?
Meditation, going inside with the question ‘Who am I?’ while eyes closed is a beautiful way to discover the deeper truth of who you are. And there are more ways to awaken from the heavy burden of succeeding as an illusionary persona and upholding an image of being good enough.
And yes, taking magic truffles is one of them. Magic truffles can help you discover who you truly are beyond of what you see in the mirror. Some refer to it as ego-death… it sounds very dramatic and as an experience it can be quite shocking, but in truth nothing dies. It basically means that the self-image disappears for a while during the journey. You are still there, you are witnessing the whole show. You cannot refer to anything anymore to call ‘you’ but the silent peaceful spaciousness that’s left.
Buddhists call it “enlightenment”. Muslims call it fana, psychologist Carl Jung gives it the name “psychic death” and says that after a long agony your subconscious dies and rises again.
Role of meditation
Ego death can be an intense experience if it hits you unexpectedly and unprepared. A habit of meditation, especially on the question Who am I? can be extremely useful and supporting. Both experience with meditation and proper guidance during the journey can elicit a wonderful awakening. Who are you if you can’t find your persona anymore? Who are you without the personal story, the collection of memories, beliefs, impressions and sensations about who you are? What happens if you rest in the abyss?
If you can relax with this confrontation with truth during the magic truffles journey and integrate this realization in daily life, life becomes an adventure again, a limitless exploration of the world of form. You’ll be more and more freed from the tyranny of the judging mind and live a more powerful authentic and peaceful life.
Taking yourself to be the self-image, a limited person, separated from the rest of the world, vulnerable and mortal is an innocent misunderstanding with immense consequences to the individual and the world. Realizing yourself beyond this façade transforms hell into heaven, me into we, defensiveness into openness, fear into love and separation into oneness with all.